LOL.
exactly

I guess i still prefer sweet stuff even when it come to trying to knock some conscious out of ma brain.
But nah, guess i don't need it anymore.

Its only oct.. er near nov and i am already dreading the next approaching Chinese new year.

I don't know but i have absolute zero tolerate for nagging, especially when it comes from those meddling relatives who see me as a delinquent since young thanks to all the false information fed to them throughout my secondary school years by my mum.

& by using only delinquent, i am being nice . Its actually much much much worst.

Example, remember when there a time where there this tv show with this girl who had a drug abusing boyfriend, they took drugs together, shoplifted and all sort of bad things teenagers do and then she got pregnant and the guy run away... my mum is on the phone and she said to her friend that her daughter is exactly just like that.

This bad.
Holyshit, i am like now, din't even go clubbing and still unicorn-like please kaopei LOL.
This world is a lie!!!.

Still got the cheek to ask me why when i show any hesitation when it come to attending any of those relative's gathering leh. My god

& i guess next year, adding on to my endless exaggerated list of evil-doingsssss (roll eyes).
They will see me as some useless human without a proper job and there, there comes the nagging.

i am already working on to carry and shoulder my responsibly. Wayyyyyyy before your tell me what i should do so i really don't need your gentle reminders.

Must my growing up be so burdened with all the amount i have to bring home?.

& quit asking me about the job.
I couldn't tell you the definite answer.
I can't fucking march up to their office and strangle the answer out of them either.
And no i hate false hopes and empty promises.
Don't force me to give them alright

when i said i will do it, i will.
Just leave me alone for i am done and over with these concerns.
I din't get any years earlier and i did everything being left alone so it sort of become a part of me.

I am just not used to the parental concern shit and i don't know how to react to it.
Well, this world i stand on my own. especially at home.
Just get over it and quit making a drama whenever this happens.

I will still try to give your the best i could, via underground method.
no, i don't do the openly affectionate thingy either.

I don't have a lot to start with & I am already sparing the little of what i have.
I never asked for expensive shits and gadgets before and i only wanted to earn enough for me to fulfill one of my little dream but for you, i am already farther away from it but its ok. Just stop asking for more.

I shall retreat to my sanctuary for now and if anyone dare drag me out from there again...there will be blood to be shed.

*murderous stare*