Thursday, May 31, 2012 於2:53 AM
fucking dog.
I swear to all deities whom existence not proven that i going fucking earn more money than you this fucking cunt and let you watch your lil without any future and sight of a sister throw cash in your fucking arrogant face.
Who are you to worry and reprimand me.
i did all i could to not pose as a burden to a family and now you want to harp on stupid things like undone household chores?
WASH YOUR OWN DANG THINGS AND CLEAR AFTER YOUR SHITS BEFORE COMING DOWN ON ME ALRIGHT.
Things i did wrong and you had to correct me?.
Bitch please you aint perfect and the only reason you're still strutting around is cause i choose to do them in silence instead of howling like some righteous pig who believes he is what, filial child who what, speaking up for justice.
And apparently tolerance ain't found in your dictionary.
and so you leave your dirty plates lying around just to spite me?.
Honestly, talking about being adult now.
Do you not call that childish?. lol stupid.
Grow up too,
i still got three years to catch up and i fucking swear i be giving money to my mum whom i tortured on daily basis by making her wash plates for me(roll eyes) by then.
and ye your without a vision of a sister is doing small stuff within her own limit to make her parent happy while whatthefuck have you done?.
Suck on that bastard.
and not everyone's view on being successful in life is the fucking same.
Grow your brain and widen your horizons too.
Just because i denial the same fate of being stuck in a office for a stable life deosn't make me a wandering lost child that needs your worrying. oh scoffs.
Btw when you're 21, did you pay for internet bill?.
Alright i will pay. Suck on that too
and if you're still reading my blog,
Fuck off stalker. Stay out of my life as much as i stay out of yours.
botanicula
Sunday, May 27, 2012 於2:34 AM
Wow, I loves botanicula, this little botanical world is amazing.
Playing this make me so happy~ kekeke.
I clapped in joy while playing it. LOL
Mr twigs is my favorite, he is so cute♥
anyways i gave up on playing lone survivor.
Its too bloody freaky and scary and i can't go through another turmoil of low battery no light and zombie popping out on me with all those disturbing sound effect playing.
My weak heart can't take it.
I think i will stay happy with my botanicula, what a pretty game~
and the puzzles are easier to solve as compared with machinarium.
Machinarium is great too but there too much puzzles that involves numbers.
i hate numbers -_-.
No good no good at all no numbers for me.
Looking forward to stacking after i completed botanicula~
Huishan the lifeless game otaku is signing off.
Ja
LOL
OH HII~
Saturday, May 26, 2012 於11:05 AM
You know,
I felt really happy today, its my peaceful otaku housewife day~
Safe at home and away from the rest of the human population cepts for the three which are blood related to me lah.
the only thing that annoys me so far is just this figging lousy keyboard of mine.
What can i do or say, this acer laptop is ancient. Guess i should grate with just a faulty lousy keyboard and i shouldn't badmouth my lappy anymore in case it decided forsake me. I still haven't got enough for a sparky brand new laptop.
:(.
I want a new laptop. I want to play civilization and various other games without them lagging...
anyways,
Woke up naturally at noon and i made myself some buttery breakfast which i later regretted cause i forget i am suffering from post-sorethroat symptom ever since two days ago but nonetheless, its yummy.
I love butter TvT.
Oh what can i do without you, my big slab of yummy yellow goodness ♥
But the consequences will be me losing my voice tomorrow.. sigh -_-
No amount of honey can help me now. Not after i ate fries too ....-_-llll
Attempted Egg in Basket!.
woooooo it turn out yumyumz
Then i spent hours scrubbing the caging clean and bathing my three brown furballs, cleaning my room and sorting my wardrobes and clearing that heap on rubbish on my desk then watched all sort of comedy and variety shows.
My lil white ball of fur passed away yesterday after i came home from work.
Hugged it till his body went cold and stiff.
He has been with me for a very long time and i could see those signs recently, maybe leaving can end his suffering but i still hate the fact that he had to go.
i miss rubbing his stomach and watching him curls up and sleep on the purple mattress i made for him.
and i din't cry while i watch him go.
Simply couldn't bear to let go off him for he went so peacefully, as if he just dozed off.
He will be still with me.
if he loved me as much as i did, he would come back to me.
Enough of sentimental stuff, i am suppose to be happy.
sigh, i paused for a long while and i guess separation is still something that affects me a lot.
It doesn't stings that much when you don't think of it and occupies yourself with various other stuffs but i just did and ye, all those memories just kept flooding in.
Had no idea of how to continue so goodbye.
I hope Botanicula can cheer me up.
Good day to you humans.
Thursday, May 24, 2012 於11:14 AM
Had a rather pleasant day out with lau liting visiting new places in singapore today.
The only bad part is that the sun is killing me.
But its alright i got my spf 80 sunblock spray and red uv protective umbrella to shield me from those killer rays.
Oh plus that ass forces me to wake up and meet her at 3pm.
Its so early, i am nocturnal !!. I prefer it when the sun goes down!!.
Anws, we went to Geylang for some yummy but oily dimsum then played some old school arcade game at kallang deserted and empty leisure park ... bishi bashi is never my forte. I hate bishi bashi and my hand hurts. Stupid game PFT.
Oh geylang turn out to look pretty normal. LOL er
The bak ku teh seem nice too, lets go eat bak ku teh!
Thennnnnnn went to this not bad at all hawker place with lotsa awesome food and the char kway tiao was awesome and brought lao ban dou hua home as offering of peace to my family.
I am grate i ate my brother's share. He brought a girl home and i walk into his room without knowing that fact and come face to face with her looking like a teletubby's ugly twin sister.
GOD WHY.
wearing a loose and washed out tank top sloppily walking around in my pink room slipper with my super ugly plain face and my hair like a tangled ball of fiber hanging from my scalp plus still wet after bathe and the pink hair pin thingy still clipping up all my fringe.
Not everyone can look sexy after bath!.i look like shit!
*pull and chew at my towel in shame which led to frustration then anger
GRRRRRRRRR
ANWS, we went to vivo to get some pet stuff and i am really tempt to get a guinea pig.
Gosh so cute.
& liting wanted a bunny.
I hope she plainly loves the bunny from heart without any evil thought and ulterior motive behind it.
Liting, pets are for life!! look at what happened to your xbox! LOL
Well actually i don't mind helping you take care of it if you really did get a bunny i be more than willing :3.
Please go get one. biong biong hurry, ps a white furry one is cute.
Ahhhh i am still thinking of how i should get my dad to help me fix a wall of shelf in my room.
I need more space for my comic books and those shits that are piling up on my old computer desk and forming a mountain.
Then after that i could go ahead and buy board games....but i had no one to play with...i only got three hamsters... maybe it could be a one human and three rodent kind of game ..oh sigh....
That's sad, nevermind.
aye aye its 2am in the morning and i am turning in early cause i bloody need to work tomorrow.
night night.
我懂
Tuesday, May 22, 2012 於11:39 AM
從頭溶掉我多災的信仰 鑄造更光更亮
淋過冷水 也等得漫長
隨着每個打擊 我會愈強
最難舌劍唇槍 怎樣武裝 和人言打仗
其實這鋼盔 天天加厚 最後令我 站着亦牽強
我縱是內傷 但強人 哪可休養
我變做了鋼鐵 但未完全勝利
無人晚上會記起
我都想可以脆弱到 仿似瓷器
極易碎那顆心 就如玻璃
我變做了鋼鐵 屹立茫茫戰地
形成最礙眼對比
若我得到常人 戀愛運氣
又哪用鐵金剛 一雙鐵臂
如可強硬到孤單都嚇退
要滴過幾次淚 才夠建築 永生的身軀
然後我掃得低 一支軍隊
先知過去如水 堅毅至此 原來回不去
無奈我有點 迫不得已 發育直到 墮地亦不碎
卻困着肉身 沒人來 也出不去 woo ~
我變做了鋼鐵 但未完全勝利
無人晚上會記起
我都想可以脆弱到 仿似瓷器
極易碎那顆心 就如玻璃
我變做了鋼鐵 屹立茫茫戰地
形成最礙眼對比
若我分到常人 戀愛運氣
又哪用我手中 這利器 woo ~
我變做了鋼鐵 但為誰人獻技
前無去路至記起
我都想可以脆弱到 仿似瓷器
亮白而無瑕 猶像花樽精美
我變做了鋼鐵 每日重臨戰地
眉頭再沒樂與悲
若我得到談情 慢條斯理
讓我用我真身 愛你
以後我貪生 又怕死
TO LAU LITING
Monday, May 21, 2012 於11:39 AM
Cause your sms is limitless and mine ain't.
I feel that its unfair and 老娘就是不爽 man
LOLLLL.
And i know you will read my blog so ya i am leaving a message.
I KNOW WHERE WE COULD GO ON THURSDAY ALREADY!!.
Lets go geylang eat Ding sum ah ding sum ~ ding ding ah sum sum ~~
Well actually i am just curious about Geylang cause that is a part of Singapore i have never been before :/.
wheeeeee ~
& of course, we must go to a pet store.
Luffy's home is stinking
DO YOU BEAR TO LET MY CUTE LUFFY LIVE IN AN FILTHY CAGE?.
i know you do, so someone.... please talk some sense into that heartless woman.
LOL.
baibai.
Free stuff make me happy.
Sunday, May 20, 2012 於10:39 AM
LOL,
Cause i am a cheapskate auntie
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
Just kidding alright, i am still in da flower age although good deal found in supermarket make me clap in delight.
Awwwwww the cookie is so cute ♥*v*♥
and something need to be done to my eyebags... Ohgod.
Been weighting love and pride and trying to find out which one is more important but since i insist i am a fearless brave Japanese warrior who see death as eating sugar cookies...
ANWS i am still madly in love with denise ho.
I can't stop looking at her and listening to her voice!!!
Nabei, did some human hack my blogger account?!.
why am i logged out somewhere else which i am typing this post?!.
HOW DARE YOU MORTAL.
disrupt my speech of undying love!!
LOL.
My password need stop being so universal .
Night night,
another episode of Bigbangtheory and i am off to sleep zzzzz~
沒有title的必要
Thursday, May 17, 2012 於11:02 AM
兩大最愛！！！！！！！
化蝶
Tuesday, May 15, 2012 於11:45 AM
這首歌
送你。
Because..
YOU'RE DEAD TO ME!!.
HAHAHAHAHAHAA.
好啦廢話少說~
我愛上阿詩了·～～～
啊～～～
我愛她！！
I be moving to arctic.
Monday, May 14, 2012 於11:21 AM
As the titles says, yes i am shifted to a freezing hell of a workplace and will be there for another three days.
Sigh the only things that are missing are the igloo and fishing hole. Polar bears too?, are they fierce? :/
So i spent half of my day shivering and developed some sort of phobia for the cold already.
I like my surrounding temperature to be 27degree. Exactly that humph
Remind me to cosplay as a dumpling tomorrow then mpfttt :(
& i been looking like ugly duckling recently.
aint putting much effort into maintaining of my outershell ever since that fateful day.
Even Sheldon looking sexier than me, at least he is cute and funny LOL.
Enough of being a whiner,i finally opened up and had a long talk about a part of the history which i choose to lock up.
and i be feeling extremely emo for the next few days for huishan ye pirato hohoho just downloaded 何韵诗's album.
"其實你我這美夢 氣數早已盡 重來也是無用
情願百世都讚頌 最美的落紅 敢捨棄才是勇"
*whimpers*
T^T
早啊～
Sunday, May 13, 2012 於11:13 AM
Hey, apparently my newest hobby is making pancakes now~
So i been holing up in the kitchen a lot trying to master the art of pancake making and to achieve the perfecto pancake.
& of course i paid the price for it too.
A extra round face. damn!
Seriously, how do they make those lovely pancakes with even tone.
>:l gr. I shall blame my pan instead.
Been trying out a lot of new flavours ever since i both the buttermilk flavour pancake box from mustafa and today its strawberry flavour!!!.
Look at my precious pink batter.
Aint it precious? awww my preciousss
Omg you're so cute.
LOL.
This is what i upload to twitter, my 85% completed breakfast.
I though i should upload it here too since the picture look pretty.
Due to the lack of talent in the photography aspect, i take really sucky photos.
....... for memory sake then.
and my breakfast look pretty here *insert sparkles*
The final one.
Alright photo sucks but its nice pft.
Btw lau liting, my scramble egg is awesome its your lose when you din't take a bite when i bring a plate of them down to your car a few days ago. MPF
Have some faith in your dear friend, i don't stay at home and be a otaku for nothing??!.
Ermmmmmm i am thinking of ham and cheese next!!.
nanananananananananaannanaananaaaaaa~
Maybe i can open a pancake restaurant eventually ..
LOL JUST KIDDING MEAHHH.
I will be sick of pancakes when my box of flour is emptied and then i shall move on to tackling the ginseng chicken soup.
tsk tsk i am really heading toward the path of the kitchen woman.
byeeeee
naa naanaa naa naa naaaa~
Saturday, May 12, 2012 於1:16 PM
Happy mama day~
I brought a rose home in order to please my ma and is hopeful that this will keep her happy for at least 1 week.
/w\~
I miss fresh lovely smelling clothes.
*ahem* its not that the clothes i am wearing now are filthy alright i am a hygiene freak its just that... my choices are limited .
Been urm working recently and everyoneeeeeeeee is asking what i wanna do now since i graduated..
Sigh.
I don't know 我不知道 Watashi wa shiranai Guá m̄ chaiⁿ yaⁿ non so! Ngo5 m4 zi1 dou6
But i sound like a loser who will end up as a toilet cleaner when i said that, not even if i say it in different languages so ya... i am rather thin-skinned and prideful you know so stop asking me :'(.
My future is so bleak and gloomy.
Dearest alien, you're the only one i believed in.
Please give me a high tech torchlight and show me the way
T T
But fretting over it now wouldn't change anything~
and it also wont change the fact that my gpa is even lower than that heartless one's.
God. Heartless one, what do we do?. God
But a wise man once said, if you judge a fish by its ability to climb tree that poor little fish will believe that its stupid forever .
At least i am a clever fish, i know i can't do math . Even the pigeons fare better than me..so coding are ugh ugh ugh ugh :(
Like come-on bro yo i don't need a test to know that i am right-brained??
Ohhhhhh well..
Now i see my future clearly... broom and kitchen.
Aliens, forget about the torchlight and invade Earth already.
Let me die a magnificent death under your laser beam.
Its raining now and i wanna go snuggle up in my cosy bed
Goodnight homo sapiens~
I am sick of saying human heeheehee.
Raging.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012 於8:23 AM
Still trying to fight back the impulse to kick down that damn door and pounce onto her right now.
Am so fucking mad.
I am sick of coming back home to these little surprise shit she lay out for me to see
I see she know my kryptonite well and is making a fucking good use of it to piss me off literally in a fucking childish way.
Oh so you said you din't wash that bag of clothes is because they're all white.
Alright, so now what. My tees are in fucking rainbow colors and has just joining my bundle of white garment in that fucking trash bag for 5 days already.
And oh i don't see you have any problem washing any of my white stuff in the past.
IF YOU FUCKING DON'T WANT TO WASH, SAY.
BACK THEM BACK INTO MY ROOM INSTEAD OF STUFFING THEM INTO A FUCKING TRASHBAG FOR ME TO SEE.
i could go to the laundry or even press that fucking washing machine button myself bitch.
and if you want to make it a point that you are not gonna clean my room.
FINE.
then stop kicking my hamster boxes out.
cheebye.
I had absolutely no problem doing the chores myself but don't fucking literally do shits that annoys me.
And wow, i found my oxford shoe folded into half and stuffed into the FUCKING DIRTY RACK FILLED WITH FUCKING DIRTY SLIPPER KNN.
Btw what i hate the most is DIRT and my stuff ending up in dirty places and YES SHE PUT A FUCKING DAMN SOCK ON MY MAKEUP TABLE.
WHERE ALL THE FACIAL STUFF ARE.
CHEEBYE.
reminds me on why i fucking want to get married young.
So i could move out of this fucking hell and away from this lunatic bitch.
Stop forcing me to go buy some fucking worms and throw it in your face.
Maybe i should so you can have a taste of your own godfdamn potion.
I need some bigbangtheory and food now.
Chill huishan CHILLL AH FUCK LAH NB.
Booya
Monday, May 7, 2012 於11:28 AM
Hey peeps wassup yo.
i am a whiner. i lovessssss whining.
Thus i gonna do so.
AHHH I AM DYING FROM FACIAL RASHES I FEEL SO DEPRESS SOBSOB.
I DON'T NEED PRACTICAL ADVICE JUST COMFORT ME LOL.
btw i look like a geisha now after slapping lots of talcum powder on my face to ease the itch.
letme sing a song.
I am sad sad girl in a cold cold world~
It's not a good good thing if i die of rashess~
:C
*extremely grumpy whiny face*
I need a extremely good tempered boyfriend whom patience and tolerance is of god level aka level 99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999.
Anyways, rainy monday.
Went to work and its the fifth day.
I am dying.
Can't even slap on any sort of bas nor lotion to protect my skin cause of my facial rash and i think its my new sunblock that is causing the allergy but going out with my raw face is killing me. omg the sun omg the uv ray omg the spot lights in the shop omg. LOL
this is how i look on mon,tue,wed and thu.
Official i am feeling so lazy day. HAHAHAHAHA
Thank god my boss aint usually around on those days else i will be 鄙视-ed LOL.
& every morning i am playing the object-finding game.
You know those detective game that requires you to find a list of stuff in a messy room within a period of time?.
There there. i do them real life.
Btw found a pretty orange book in the house and decided to nick it and make it my diary.
MUA HA HA HA.
and congralulations to liting you make it into the third page of the book in bold letters.
"FOR GOODNESS SAKE DEAR GOD I BEG OF YOU TO NOT LET THE DARKNESS DEVOURS MY DEAR FRIEND LAU LI TING AGAIN, AMEN."
I am trying very hard to be sincere here. Please answer my prayers
look at how desperate i am, turning to the holy ones for help before july. holy shit.
and with pending threats and terrors that is endangering our friendship, i am calling for a truce.
Ahem *clears throat*, you know you are.That demon is back, do something about it!. quick quick!
Only you can drill something into that mind of the stubborn capricorn
Kill that demon before it lay egg and infest her brain!.
Oh no its 2.25am already gotcha go the bed and read my book then sleep
goodnightlye~
my cheeks are so itchy. :(.
Just one of the rarer days.
Sunday, May 6, 2012 於10:55 AM
of looking nicer and more presentable
Been working a lot so that the digits in my account could increase but sadly, it never did.
&oh that net machine been such a paranoid bitch today. Locking itself up after three wrong password input
The digits are blurry and three tries are too littla!!
and in the end i had to call the hotline and talk to that unfriendly woman pff.
I dislike talking to strangers!!!
Am feeling so lazy lately and been roaming town wearing just go-to-market outfit with minimal effort being done to do my hair and paint my face.
i need some motivation to get me back looking more erhem, attractive again.
LOL.
& i should. I don't wanna die alone T ^ T....
In a musky moldy dark house filled with cats.
perhaps i should start with buying myself a new perfume.
Nice scent attracts the opposite sex. Its like flower to the bee!!.
but i had no idea what kind of scent should i get. Those girl perfume are too strong and powdery for my taste. I will end up liking the male perfume more which attracts..my own sex. Nevermind no use waste of money i should just use that sum to find and buy myself a powerful enough sunblock instead and bring buckets of them to bkk so i can bath in them hence giving me the divine UV ray protection .
but still doesn't save me from the scorching heat.
Ok,
I had no idea why but my face is like, swollen T T.
omg what is happening to me firstly my skin is all itchy and rashes started appearing and its really bad and now my face is swollen. I look like a pig head.
i shall go to bed early and hopefully that will put a end to da nightmare. T T
have to, I AM GOING OUT TO WORK TMR I CAN'T WALK AROUND WITH A SWOLLEN FACE?
I need this dress now.
Friday, May 4, 2012 於10:25 AM
That princess inside of me is awakening.
LOL.
If there a zombie apocalypse, i will wear this dress and slashes zombie with a axe.
THAT WOULD BE SO COOL.
*beams*
Furs.
Thursday, May 3, 2012 於9:13 AM
I love my mini lump of furs so much.
Getting a guinea pig soon~~~~~
heeheeheeheehee
Oh my bebe come to me my bebe~
Hey yo bro.
Hello,
No more chunks of angsty text blocks here and this shall be related to my daily life.
Well,
I have just graduated and am still too lazy to travel all the way down to damn woodlands in this crazy heat and scorching sunlight which threatens the fairness of my skin to collect my cert but i guess i should go already.
Maybe like..next week..
Liting give me a ride pleaseeeeeeee LOL.
Anyways,erm..
Cause you don't know what i look like anymore. LOL
Still battling chuddy cheeks and stubborn pimple scars.
ARGH WHY WONT THEY GO AWAY.
Plus my wisdom teeth are growing out, they hurts like hell.
Can't wait to help them pulled out so i don't need to face decaying disgusting tooth at the back of my gum
Went to go collect my buys from a warehouse in jurong east today and the heat is really murderous.
with the weight of the stuff i am carrying back home, i felt like to die.
At least i got good buys from my online shopping ~
Most of them turn out to be pretty heehee.
Guess what's my favorite color now
but i guess i had to stop shopping online cause my friend is going into the "i refuses to go back to work" mode and is doing everything she could so she can go on another long vacation LOL.
She even called me to explain when i said the stuff aint as cheap as before.
I truly under-estimate how much she hated facing all the piles and office stuff. LOL
When i told her i don't have enough money for plane to go bangkok she even suggested a two day trip on train to there.
LOL.
Thank god the idea of beds on train is appealing to me for i seen them in movies and woots it is so exciting kekekekeke, you know with those gun screen bang bang!.
so well ya, i be trying to save some money from now onward which means stay away from watsons and sasa and etc
It would to so fun if we could all go together. ugh sigh
Still thinking if i should give my mum a hundred buck
She really is a professional in trying to make me feel guilty and give in to whatever she wanted -_-
by the way i really need a good eye cream.
Sigh.
Nevermind
Wednesday, May 2, 2012 於8:16 AM
I am done with all these debating and arguing and some of which, i don't even know why it is still the issue anymore.
& since i do not like the idea of giving some bitches in twitter a free show they would love i would answer here.
Firstly, that man. Honestly i don't give a shit anymore.
Him and everything about him, pretty much like my old math textbooks.
Tossed and burnt.
Plus, i aint even pissed about the part of those intimate actions or whatsoever.
Actually i have sort of laid down that issue two days ago before this total meltdown beguns
(sorry too much zombie and stuff like that)
You truly just don't get why i am so pissed and affected.
How about me, decided to swallow everything down again after days of struggling with it cause i put our friendship above all and yes, ALL, then you on a Friday night at the damn book place dating happily like nothing had happened.
So you think its alright to throw shits at me and let me digest it myself while you could still eat your breakfast and read some books like its another bright sunny happy day?.
Hell no.
Anws remember those unreasonable i-da-prince days when you did wrong and yet i am the one who keep on calling and apologizing ?
&Bitch please, i belong to those who would rather perform a Seppuku than to bow down.
And yes,i know we're saving grounds for each other for so many years of friendship aint something you can trash easily so lets stop going round and round on the same damn issue that aint the issue anymore.
Why not you do what i used to do for you.
Without being a phoenix wright and yelling objections cause it aint a fair case for you.
It aint for me either.
Not on the part when you could just toss me a bomb and expect me to contain the explosion while you walks off whistling.
By the way, is right or wrong so damn important?
There aint anyone who is truly innocent in this case anymore so scrub that off.
&don't forget about the part when you tried to ask for a continuation after that night, hinting him and stuff?.
Give me some hard evidence proving that you are drunk or what so i could say its my fault and sorry for being to unreasonable alright.
Else, what could i say.
Oh then, I am so sorry.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012 於11:34 AM
That i couldn't reach that extent whereby i can be so selfless till i can give my all without thinking of asking for anything back.
Why start on subject whom been long stashed away in my history book now.
Third party? Are you serious?. Do you think i will choose to drop the bomb for someone whom i already knew i am having problem with?.
and yes, i know i am having problem with him.
But you do believe it?, i know or rather, i believes that the problem is not you all along.
Or rather, plainly.. do you think i will fall out with you just because of .. that kind of thing?
and sorry, my character is kind of queer.
What people may felt angry about in that confession you said you me might not be the same with me.
What i drawn from that is plainly just that,
This fucker doesn't seem to cared about me much enough to think about my sad face when i know what just happened. Hi,do you expect me to throw confetti and congrats the both of you if that turns into reality?
I dare swear to all the fucking gods in the world that i will never do the same to you if i am in your place cause i cared enough and will think of the consequences.
Maybe its true that human's brain will malfunction and instead think with only their toes when they're overwhelmed with erm, love but still, it just prove that maybe i am nothing but a pea to you.
and your actions , its not even a maybe anymore.
Thus, what i wanted all along is so fucking simple.
A simple apology, just to show that you cared.
If someone had to go around with that forlorn,abandoned puppy look.
ITS ME. ok.
and i had no fucking idea why i choose to bottle up and not speak ill of you when you this piece of-.
Burn in hell,you. and those you poured into to.
Damn all of your and those disgusting easy words that are cheaper than the dirt.
Point your finger at me only after you can do what i did.
Else its nothing but a wastage of energy and saliva.