Just me.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012 於11:49 AM
My apologies.
Perhaps i am in love with the idea of feeling sad.
the feeling of being able to relate to.
Its just rare
& is it weird to be addicted to this bitter aftertaste?.
I...i...spent too much....
Aish,
Yesterday i am like comforting myself that i wouldn't spent much this month for there will be no events and such and that i will be able to fill back the money i overspent last month but then,
Received watson's one day member sale message
May i foams?
& i lost my eyebrow pencil just days ago.
Everything is fated.
My lord just want me to have a new eyebrow pencil LOL.
plus i went to the doctor today and the pills are expensive.
and also gave tribute to ma
and and just brought 4 pair of heels from taobao plus one hair curler...
KILL ME.
SOMEONE, PLEASE TAKE MY MONEY AWAY FROM ME.
BUT MUST RETURN BACK HOR. LOL
I CAN'T RESIST TEMPTATION.
NO NO!!.
Leave without me, just go already,
my hope of a having a certain sum of money in my bank.
I am designated to live in poverty.
*build a cardboard house under the bridge*
but looking at the bright side....
....
No!, there are no bright sides on this!!!
My house will collapse when it rain!! :(
& i like curling up and sleep when it rain!!!! :((((
Sigh i want someone to come looking for me too when i went missing.
T T.
Been listening to songs and i am mentally dying.
i wantttttttt scary rides. i wantttttttt vacation. i wanttttttttttttttt adventurous backpack vacation!!! hee
Been listening to songs and i am mentally dying.
i wantttttttt scary rides. i wantttttttt vacation. i wanttttttttttttttt adventurous backpack vacation!!! hee
Ahhhh~~~
Tuesday, October 30, 2012 於11:58 AM
The kind of english song i like.
LOL.
Andy, i tried listening to we are never ever getting back together and no, i don't like it.
I think i need to time travel back to a few years back to like it. I feel too old for it /-\.
Anws you're going to watch cloud atlas with me on jan 2013 provided that if you din't go to hell & i din't return back to the Earth as minerals.
(Because he suddenly talk to me about hell and no.. i don't really believe in god and religion, i only know that alien enhanced us and make us difference from the other animals. lol )
Else its official, ha!.
Am so mad happy that i finally found something else to read except for fiftly shades of having sex everywhere i love sex. I prefer things in a whole set thus i am sorta determined to finish the three book & I make it to the last one book but the never-ending mrs grey & mr grey is getting on my nerve. As if the inner goddness thingy is not enough -_-.
I GONNA GO READ CLOUD ATLAS.
I think i will totally start on An orison of sonmi-451 first.
It look so figging interesting, my kind of story heehee.
Futuristic dystopia for the win!!!.
I don't really care if i need to wake up early tomorrow ...
WOOO.
Lies.
Monday, October 29, 2012 於11:26 AM
You're never gonna love me, so what's the use?
What's the point in playing a game you're gonna lose?
What's the point in saying you love me like a friend?
What's the point in saying it's never gonna end?
You're too proud to say that you've made a mistake
You're a coward to the end
I don't wanna admit, but we're not gonna fit
No, I'm not the type that you like
Why don't we just pretend?
Lies, don't wanna know, don't wanna know oh
I can't let you go, can't let you go oh
I just want it to be perfect
To believe it's all been worth the fight
Lies, don't wanna know, don't wanna know oh
marina&the diamonds.
Yucky beer & awful bbq food.
LOL.
exactly
I guess i still prefer sweet stuff even when it come to trying to knock some conscious out of ma brain.
But nah, guess i don't need it anymore.
Its only oct.. er near nov and i am already dreading the next approaching Chinese new year.
I don't know but i have absolute zero tolerate for nagging, especially when it comes from those meddling relatives who see me as a delinquent since young thanks to all the false information fed to them throughout my secondary school years by my mum.
& by using only delinquent, i am being nice . Its actually much much much worst.
Example, remember when there a time where there this tv show with this girl who had a drug abusing boyfriend, they took drugs together, shoplifted and all sort of bad things teenagers do and then she got pregnant and the guy run away... my mum is on the phone and she said to her friend that her daughter is exactly just like that.
This bad.
Holyshit, i am like now, din't even go clubbing and still unicorn-like please kaopei LOL.
This world is a lie!!!.
Still got the cheek to ask me why when i show any hesitation when it come to attending any of those relative's gathering leh. My god
& i guess next year, adding on to my endless exaggerated list of evil-doingsssss (roll eyes).
They will see me as some useless human without a proper job and there, there comes the nagging.
i am already working on to carry and shoulder my responsibly. Wayyyyyyy before your tell me what i should do so i really don't need your gentle reminders.
Must my growing up be so burdened with all the amount i have to bring home?.
& quit asking me about the job.
I couldn't tell you the definite answer.
I can't fucking march up to their office and strangle the answer out of them either.
And no i hate false hopes and empty promises.
Don't force me to give them alright
when i said i will do it, i will.
Just leave me alone for i am done and over with these concerns.
I din't get any years earlier and i did everything being left alone so it sort of become a part of me.
I am just not used to the parental concern shit and i don't know how to react to it.
Well, this world i stand on my own. especially at home.
Just get over it and quit making a drama whenever this happens.
I will still try to give your the best i could, via underground method.
no, i don't do the openly affectionate thingy either.
I don't have a lot to start with & I am already sparing the little of what i have.
I never asked for expensive shits and gadgets before and i only wanted to earn enough for me to fulfill one of my little dream but for you, i am already farther away from it but its ok. Just stop asking for more.
I shall retreat to my sanctuary for now and if anyone dare drag me out from there again...there will be blood to be shed.
*murderous stare*
The terror.
Sunday, October 28, 2012 於10:56 AM
Short lived happy moments ..in a toilet before the terror.
THE TERRORRR :
another even shorter happy moment with the creepy display before i am pulled away
THE REAL TERROR!!! :
conclusion,
I hate mob of humans and their ridicules blinking demon hairbands.
Yes what Sir & mdn, why do your wish to enrage me by creating extreme discomfort in my eyes?.
Oh, not to forget those stupid ones who are wielding their ficking annoying also blinking star war like sword shit. It would be a pleasure to shove them up their asses.
ef.
BYE,
signing off, a utterly upset and disappointed temp-human.
Yes temporary before my kind come and collect me from this horrible horrible place.
A emergent layer of a human is bullying me!!!
疲倦的老子我
Saturday, October 27, 2012 於12:26 PM
yep yep.
All i want is to shut myself at home and throw my phone into my great pacific garbage patch of a wardrobe.
Pillow no.2 din't turn out as comfy as estimated so i shifted the pile and add them to... ya, er.. stuff turn all inside and closed the door swiftly.
I think i am developing split personality soon.
Been drifting to & from one drastic world to another even more drastic world recently.
Its like, this minute my life is still full of hope and i am rolling around on a sunny meadow playing with the mehmeh lamb then in another minute my sunny meadow sorta melted & twisted into some sort of inferno with me being the biggest demon there, clutching onto a butcher knife with this desperate need to infect pain & injury on some human.
.......
I hope you die the brazen bull way.
......
ok don't want lah, abit too painful already.
*coughs*
ANWS,
er.
(can't think of any topic to change to)
Er.
Scotts vitamins C pastilles taste great!! :D
byebye!!
HEYYY.
Thursday, October 25, 2012 於8:39 AM
Today is a super lousy day.
First of all... My phone failed me.
Thus i woke up at 1.15pm when i am suppose to start work at 1pm.
lol.
I still thought i am dreaming when i squint at the clock.
& so... i jumped right of ma bed after reality starts kicking in and rannnnnnnn out of the house right after brushing ma teeth and washing ma face.
Thus for the whole day i am sorta feeling rather petulant for i haven't bath.
The first time of the year where i din't bath before i head out. omg ew
Secondly, it seems that everyone know how horrible my USS hell-oween trip has been and keep on teasing me about it.
I even got a consolation tau huay...
NO, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT HOW SCARY THE OTHER HAUNTED HOUSES ARE.
I AINT CURIOUS AT THE NARROW ALLEY OF HANDS. NO. PFF GO AWAY.
!!!!!!!
but it sound so fun T T.
You know, its kinda sad having to hear about it from the others when you have gone to the same damn place yourself.
*flip table*
and for the others... i pray and hope that it will rain whole day...
NO ONE SHALL BE HAPPY IN THE HORROR NIGHT, NO ONE SHALL BE.
MUAHAHAHHAA
i am done being crazyyyyyy.
Alright bye.
Supperr
Wednesday, October 24, 2012 於11:35 AM
Nomnomnomnomm
I hope i can manipulate te fats in my body.
Move them to a more desired location so i wouldn't look so boney
On a working streak thus been eating heavy supper daily and my face is getting chubbier .. and not to forget bout the tummy fats.
Ohlord.
So busy so busy so busy i want some free time!!.
Then i would go get some acholoic stuff and go do whatever i wanted without my brain hindering me with all those excessive negative thoughts.
& i am tired of getting worried about the results for my job.
I WILL JUST KEEP THE FAITH *SPARKLES*
IF ITS MINE ITS MINE IF ITS NOT I WILL JUST TRY AGAIN LORH.
Ahhhh... my life suddenly feel better.
Ok goodnight~
Erm.
My mum is being all melodrama again days back and been shrieking about how i don't regard her as my mama just because i am fret up with her bombing of facebook questions.
/-\.
What?!, no i refuse to explain the fundamental of facebook to someone who like to anyhow take photos of me in my most natural state and may upload them.
This is call the early elimination of all threats. LOL
& when she is being like that, cold war started & normally she wouldn't talk to me and tend to leave all my housework undone and let me live in a filthy state in order to annoy me but well...never really work before.
Well my room has always been in the messy-neat state and i am fine as long as my bed is clean... & with a few days worth of unwashed cloths man doesn't really bother me much. I still got plenty to spare mehh & even if i run out... i work in a ficking boutique. HAHAHAHA
&so, I came home to a sparking clean room today.
ding-ding-ding
I win.
LOL
Its kind of silly to start a cold war with me man, I don't know but i am quite sure it would take a longgggggggggg time till i notice/ feel something. so ya, don't. *smirks*
But...
Aftermath of it is...
WEI WEI WEI..
WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH THIS HEAP. OI
I stared at it for a few seconds and mentally struggled for a while but bah, i decided to see it as ma pillow no.2.
I think she pile it all on my bed because she think that i will do something about it asap for its on my holy resting place but nah!!. i am using it as ma pillow!! my head rest!!. buuu.
Oh ya, because USS horror night has been sucha kaopeikaobu disaster . i felt like i never went before i am itching to go again but thinking of throwing in more money to those shitty uss people piss me off but how i really wanna go into the chinese haunted house. omg T T.
PFFF
Sunday, October 21, 2012 於6:17 AM
hiii i am at my cousin's baby first month thingy.
And they are like talking about my bro's gf and saying she is tall etc. like 172 or something.
Then my mum looked at me and say yaa taller then me and said i am 160.
Immediately i shot her a vicious stare and i am mentally screaming,
NO I AM 162. I WENT FOR CHECK UP I AM 162!! LOL.
-Stomp around like t-rex-
Tsk tsk.
Thursday, October 18, 2012 於12:29 PM
nomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomn
nomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnn
Anyways, tsk that andyker.
Do you think i really din't learn anything after knowing you for over more than half a decade?!.
Still wanna lie to me leh LOL.
Actually i don't need to know you for long to see through it man.
Who in the right mind will wake up at 2 in the morning and take cab to go buy something??!!??!
Insulting my intelligent ah ?!.
kao.
LOL
Aiyahhh seven years liao all the cells in the human body also kena replaced by new one liao aiyah my friend change liao lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Slaughtering virtual zombies also more important than your best friend lehhhhhhhhhhhh~
You owe me a meal for the double betrayal i tell you pfff.
I want soju and bbq meat.
We need a serious conversation and i sense that you urgently need a preach from me on relationship issues.
Imma watching you LOL
ANYWAYS,
i am dead tired.
Had a really tiring day at work doing the stocks and when i reach home, i sat in front of my laptop and just stoned.
......
Ohya, reminder to myself.
Get a notebook and keep a dream diary.
All my dreams are far too interesting to be forgotten.
I am forever in some sort of adventure.
Yesterday i am in this totally run down and deserted city. Am also dating that cancer guy who used to be very nice to me and we had a baby boy. Had some really sweet moment together exploring the city until we bump into this group of heavily armed people clothed in military uniforms & they hunted us down. The guy sort of die and they threw my baby boy out of the city before bringing me to meet their leader as the leader wanted me *coughs* . I resisted and ran out of the city in search for my baby boy and this is when i realize that the city is actually heavily barricade and the outside world is in a figging chao and there are really gross monster crawling everywhere. Even more determinate to save my son, i march out like a boss with only a ficking pole as weapon and starting whacking some blue and slimy one eyed monster before that leader appear grab me from behind angrily. Sadly. my alarm rang. & i got so pissed off.
kaopei.
Exciting part yo.
This is almost exactly like my favorite kind of yaoi story plot kekeke.
Except that the leader aint really my type, overly muscular urghh.
I don't think i will ever date over muscular guy, felt like he could send me flying off with just one blow during a quarrel if he got agitated. Especially when i am so skinny, i dislike the idea of blasting off into the sky lol.
Awww if its jaejoong it would be so ficking perfect.
My son will be so figging cute, i think i would squash those monsters into pulp just to save him.
Walking dead time.
BYEEEEE
My eyes are burning.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 於8:51 AM
After three consecutive days of sleepless night and overdose of zombies massacre..
MY EYES ARE STINGING.
>_<.
Lol, but fireworks of gut and intestines & occasional beheading with a samurai sword are still awesome. *sparkles*.
Been through a hell of a medical checkup today and ..
THIS IS SO NOT FAIR :(.
I am totally racing against time and stricken with worry
i bet my heart rate is inaccurate.
Had to rush to to lucky plaza for some audio testing but still i am not done with seeing the doctor cause they're seriously so bloody inefficient and i waited there for a hour all fretting and stuff cause my phone is also dying and i still need to get contact lens for vision test and argh when i finally got to lucky plaza the clinic is closed.
ARGH ARGH ARGH.
i am totally getting hypertension.
If i fail the medical i will totally burn the place down before diving into the Singapore river and never surfacing again. pf
Anyways, alright la looking on the bright side.
Even if i do fail. oh choy, I realize that my friends are still humane and nice.
HAHAHHAA.
Accompany me to places and helping me with the stuffs.
*look up and wipe tears off*.
Ohhh what could i do without you people!!~~
Ok.
i think i sound sincere enough. mehhh~
Come gimme my oscar reward LOL.
HAHAHA.
Anyways, i need to ruin my hair . Right now its all limp & flat.
I have decided to go back to bushy hair state by dying my hair and spoiling it deliberately
& i really miss my long hair.
I wish it will growwwwwwww
&& i wish that my hair line can magically go lower and be rounder overnight so i wouldn't look like a frankenstien
Maybe i should be frankenstien during halloween.
Pull all of my fringe up and wear a screw hairband.
OH THIS IS SAD.
T T.
80% out of the emo momo state.
Monday, October 15, 2012 於12:18 PM
& i partially blame those soulful Cantonese songs sang by denis & sammi .
But the main culprits is still those friends of mine.
Grow some heart.
Perhaps its my fault for appearing too nonchalant thus making you feel its ok to dance around in my landmine area like nothing even gonna explode but still, honestly do you think its nice to question those that shouldn't be questioned?.
Subtracting all the moral issues&just saying.
If he really did harbor feelings for you then, during the time when we're still dating.
Should I put on the red nose and officially be the clown of the year?.
& for the above, i had typed it out in all sort of version and i even verbally warned you to stop but no, you just had to kill and taint whatever is that left of those memories i had.
& don't say that i din't think for you.
For what that really hurts emotionally.
I did. You din't, at least not totally.
But its ok,
you still win.
For i admit that i can't get angry with you for long.
Anyways, i have already decided to live my life like a boss and soonnnn i shall thrash it out... after i laid my hand on some alcoholic nerve numbing drinks.
Its easier to grab the collar and shake that troublemaker of a answer out rather than tossing and turning around on my bed doubting myself in misery.
Why not, since it satisfy everyone and put a end to this never ending cycle of shit.
If there a reason why i don't cry, its only because i still see no reason to.
If i did, this would have ended early.
So ya, I think i deserves to know anyway.
I do.
倘若希望必碎，它不因你我
即使看似小丑，讓當的是我
Sunday, October 14, 2012 於12:01 PM
從未放下的
何以回頭
初始至今不願哭鬧並非無情
縱使是空 似傻，
此等待不該被當玩笑
夠了。
-_-!
...........
I have a new found respect for people suffering from bulimia.
Seriously, it take a lot of determination to puke those food out.
*salute*
& if i had friend suffering from this kinda illness i will totally watch that ill human 24hour a day cause its so bad for the throat.
Even for a failed attempt like mine.. its hurtz T T.
Tried gagging myself to rid my system of the acnotin i ate earlier cause i am super worried that it may affect my medical check up result but nah, its torturing and i gave up..
ohmygod the whole process is hell.
Ye acnotion you shall stay & work wonders on my face and well... 10mg wouldn't wreck up my system so bad right...?. i hope so..
orz.
Been living like a zombie recently and i had no idea why,
I just don't feel happy :(.
Nothing interests me anymore.
Been feeling petulant and rejecting human contact.
buuuu.
* broods*
ORZ
Thursday, October 11, 2012 於12:30 PM
Am looking at my past photos and ya.
I realize i am a chao ah lian.
LOL.
The marshmallow brown hair period with te banana.
Orz. is that me, when i am still working in bugis
What in the hell is with the african savanna like theme.
Why do both of us look like we're all ready for some tribal dance after saying cheese?!...
But well at least i got perfect skin back then and look much healthier...
*shed some sentimental tear*
Good night good night.
...........
Tuesday, October 9, 2012 於12:17 PM
whatdafuck.
PREPARE PREPARE.
buy me a melee weapon for christmas.
Liting brother, stock up fuel in te car!!!.
Lazy me.
Monday, October 8, 2012 於9:15 AM
Sigh,
Gone are the days when i am all vain and stuff, totally concerned about my appearance bahbahbah.
Right now i been going out with my bare face and looking like some human suffering from terminal illness thanks to my very very pale & tired looking face.
I need some help.
LOL.
and motivation.
...........................&finally...
LOVE.
that emergent layer of a human seem to be gone for good. great
*scrowls*
nevermind nevermind responsibly + food come first.
Parents, why give birth to me so late. lol
Facing a aging yet still slogging papa bear stress me out yo.
& for that i need courage pills.
why did Einstein die before he come out with courage pills?. why oh brilliant mind why.
I must get through the interview!!.
:(
$$$$$$$$.
ugh
Hellyeah
Friday, October 5, 2012 於10:36 AM
This is ficking powerful.
Felt like they can kill hords of zombie just by dancing this LOL.
But still..... five... five of them..five... T T
i will never get over it!!! T ^ T
Time to rewatch mirotic to reminisce.
When the five of them look so godly together....
*run away crying*
Buubuuu =3=
Thursday, October 4, 2012 於11:19 AM
Firstly,
My love for val has went up by trillions.
I loves any human who get me one piece LOL.
*realistic*
Well its like the sky is raining candy then suddenly the candy turns into huge fireball of death today when i woke up and face the mirror.
The candy part is that i finally receive my email of hope. TvT
As for the world end part...
DAFUG HAPPEN TO MY FACE?!.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
& i immediately pester a banana into bringing to the doctor.God why.
The banana says i am too stress or something.
But the word stress feels so alien to me. I don't even know how it felt like
I am the sit in a float and sip lemon juice during a flood kinda of person?. LOL
but looking at my current situation.. the papa bear being very sick and all those, those meddling of busybody relatives, the need to grow up... and oh, the lack of food intake.
& maybe from the recent overdose of love coming from mama bear for i gave her the tribute she wanted??.
Omg she even changed my babies's bedding the day after. Realistic leh mum, the day before she is kicking the cages around lah. LOL
So ye maybe i really am stressed T T.
Doctor i am coming tomorrow please save my face T T.
My teeth are still hurting badly and i still can't chew without the fear of them falling out.
Thus i been eating very little and the sight of my babies eating so heartily annoys me.
Look at how fat he is.
I watched him shift comfortably into this position and begun chewing his food lazily and it took all my love for him to stop me from snatching the nuts away LOL .
Night night.
Time for rewatching The walking dead in the dark in preparation for te season 3 *sparkles* sparkles*
Ohya,this is a warning to someone who just got confined due to a hellyeah careless mistake.
If hotel transylvania is taken down before we watch it, your present for whatever festival/event will be a piece of newspaper with 怨 written on it in red.
Question?.
Monday, October 1, 2012 於12:44 PM
Sometimes i think too much.
Er.. not brooding and self doubting kind but...
WHY DO HUMAN MALE HAVE NIPPLES?.
ok this is so weird but...
I DON'T UNDERSTAND ._.
為什麼 為什麼 為什麼?!
What is the biological use man.
Ye for the female we breastfeed our offspring but er male?. er???. explain!
Am playing with my leng leng & while tickling him i realize he doesn't have nipples so yaaa
HAHA.
Time to google
heeeeeee
I am truly a master in self entertaining lol.
I can't get bored at all.
Esp when i got access to the net right on my palm *sparkles*
ahhh the world is full of curiosity neh~
Reading about Dr.moreau is more interesting then the non-stop ahh ahh ohhh om of ana & christain grey. Seriously it take determination to complete the book..lol
The only motivation left is that i still am curious about his past and that mum of his but... ugh -_-.
& oh, Vivisection.
I DON'T APPROVEE ^%$#@.
Whining.
2012
Is the year of illness.
I have not experience falling sick for so many ficking times in a year.
I always believe i am sorta healthy and bah bah bah but for the past week Panado has like, become part of my stable food LOL.
I used hate them cause i heard rumors about it staying in your body for 20years bahbah LOL but now i had to carry a packet of those holy pills with me around in case i can't take da pain from headaches/ toothaches/ whatever anymore.
The toothaches has become bad till i willingly put chopped garlic in my mouth and chew them to numb the pain. Remedy from google,oh praise da human's brain the pain is 80% gone but there a side effect
My breath is foul & I think i am getting a sore throat soon. Throat been feeling exceptionally dry geesh
& that's not the end to my pain,
My jaw been starting to feel sore and combine all these together, i been having difficulty sleeping.
Close my eyes and all i could feel is the throbbing pain, clearer than ever.
Thus i been going to work in a lifeless mode and there are a lot of things that i am worried about.
One hit me abruptly just now when i glance at my desk & found something extremely important missing...
LOL LITING ARE ALL MY CERTS AND IDENTITY STUFFS WITH YOU OR DID I LOST THEM?
GOD MY MAMA GONNA PEEL ME ALIVE IF SO.
And this throw me in te extrme pain mode now & i can't sleep but i had to wake up early tomorrow to get my teeth fixed ugh ugh ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
*pull hair*
Secondary,... where is my email notification?...
*draw circles on the floor*
.........................................
Lets picnic, with only rum.
LIM JIU T^T T^T T^T T^T T^T.
Oh i just realise, i do better with fiery temper humans. LOL
Those who are impulsive & with bad tempers , cause else i be the one being so.
hee
No wonder all my friends like that one *coughs* * coughs* HAHA.