Life been gloomy ever since.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012 於2:06 PM
But at least my nails cheer me up~
I call them the happy happy nails.
heeheeheehee
The chershire themed~
& then this shade of pink!. wah i love it so much *beams*
Alright, its 5.13 in the morning and actually i do want to type a long and meaningful post to sum up my past failure of a date since its been 3 years ever since i offically..er..sort of really dated..
But i realize i can't write anything at all.
Plainly because i don't feel involved at all,
Honestly i had no idea if the person like me at all but i suppose not.
Despite all the assurance i got, i decided against it.
Cause your actions told me so.
As for being the not involved part..
Well, everything ended just because he is dating me in his mind.
He assumed I am needy, he isolated himself from me and the rest of the society just to think things out on his own and eventually he assume it would be better to leave.
Beginning, i am hesitant.
For i am afraid , afraid of being hurt.
But someone told me i should love without fear.
I tried and i almost did.
But for someone who can't even share his troubles and doubts with me.
I am never that needy girl in your head, i been waiting for weeks, for you to ask me and for me to prove you not.
When you came, you bring an pathetic end . The end.
I am so thankful that i din't.
and that batam night information has bring on a total dramatic trauma breakdown for me for almost half a week which is rather serious for i am a ridiculously cheerful person.
Well compare to being upset, i am fuming for honestly, a few dang weeks is nothing to me. seriously. -_- can i punch you for i am fuming up again at the thought of it. gr -_-.
and all that i am concern of is whether you do me or not.
Sorry its really embarrassing and pride murdering to type that word out so ya rofl.
Don't give me those proprieties shit and if its still a ya or uh.
You could still say hi after you rid yourself of those cursed whatever and when you gather enough courage to survive all of the below
HAHAHA
*smirks*
by the way since i am on the topic,
erhem. that someone, bow to me and apologize sincerely right now with peace offering and being kind like always, i will bury the hatchet.
else,
DIE.DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. GO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
给我死！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
oh god, i had the impulse to destroy and delete this post the minute i finish typing it ugh better turn off the com i am drunk today take it as i am drunk!!.