I don't really like apple

/_\

Friday, April 27, 2012 於11:57 AM

I just realize.
Whenever i feel miserable, i would want to do something nice
Then i will feel slightly happier.

NO WONDER YOU OLD AHPEK MAKE ME SUFFER SO MUCH.
FUH *&^%$#@#$%^&T*&^%$#@KNN.

Anyways, payday is coming~~
i must save some money this time round!!!

>:l

"Poor young maiden! For the thrill on your tongue of stolen sweets"

Hello~

Been listening to phantom of the opera recently.
LOL. *coughs*

Thus my action been rather dramatic
So are my texts.

LOL.
i had no idea what make me type that. LOL.

Anyways,
Choose to do so cause my playlist consist mainly of soulful mandarin songs which i am able relate to back to my real life ;_; issues and no, i refuse to be sway nor affected thus i shall listen to opera songs.

Another reason is just that, i prefer songs that are able to move me emotionally rather than physically.
Doesn't really fancy music that make me go everyday i am shuffling nananananana~ *do some clumsy footwork pretending to shuffle*

Hannan i am just lazy to move lah. Meah

Honestly i thought i could escape to an totally awesome world with only the phantom for company and let his sweet voice cease my torment and seriously what is there to relate to in such dramatic music.

But oh hell in the name of thor the great thunder god, i am wrong.
Example, look at my title. That's what i called a thousand misery and annoyance in a single sentence.

Fuu wu wu wu wu wu wu wu wu wu wu wu T T.

and thinking of it now, my life been such a drama. why not.. -_-.

Nevermind, i adores phantom of opera.
How i wish i could go to the musical itself T T
Here i present my second favourite scene

Dear phantom, come and kidnap me anytime you want.
I beg of you to come and do so already.

I am ready *insert sparkling effect*

as a bonus, imagine the phantom is sen mitsuji....
*sanji's hentai expression*

LOL

Good night, i shall get at least 7 hours of sleep today,
I hate those bags and dark circles under my eyes T T.

Omg i swear i almost die from heart attack

Wednesday, April 25, 2012 於4:38 AM

Am spenting a rather blissfully peaceful day at home watching dramas and playing with my precioussssssss(s)

Was feeding those little cute round ball of fur cheese when suddenly my beloved ball of white furry cuteness freezes with cheese it his mouth and his eyeballs are bulging out.

OMFG MY HEART ALMOST STOP PUMPING.
i knew he was old and been having trouble breathing recently but its so fucking scary.

i picked him up and pry the cheese out of his mouth and his body is like, freezed there.
I though he was death or what omfg seriously fml.

and i carried him outside for fresh air and keep on trying to make him suck in some air but it all failed.

THUS I DID CPR, BUT HE HAS SO LITTLE EFFECT MAN.
BUT FML I ONLY SEEN PEOPLE DID IT ON TV BEFORE AND I AM TOTALLY LOUSY
PLUS HIS MOUTH IS SO TINY AND MY BABY'S IS LIKE TOTALLY LIMP AND HE LOOK LIKE HE IS DYING SOON

I AM LIKE IN A FUCKING PANIC MODE. OMG. FML.

and then,

i suddenly remember that bottle which i used to water my cactus.

Oh that bottle of magic.
I emptied it and begin pumping air into my baby's mouth and it works.

T_T.
Praise the lord and my wit.
LOL.

i gonna keep this bottle on stand by 24hour right next to his cage man.
gosh

Look at the innocent face. Ohgod. I love you T-T.

Please dont die man T T.

Omg my hands are still shaking. le me shall go listen to phantom of opera and calm down. omg

Update.
Now i realize i prolly look stupid squatting near the corridor doing cpr on my baby.
If my neighboor saw they will prolly think i am mad or what.

..................

..............................................................

its ok....................at least my baby is alive......

but...........................................

............................

My brain refuses to shut down

Sunday, April 22, 2012 於1:27 PM

Sometimes, i doubted myself.
Without a doubt, those beliefs that i holds strongly onto are giving me hurt and making me vunerable.

Ten man enjoys slaughtering humans for human meat to feast on.

One man step up and says that consuming of human meat is wrong and must be discontinued.

That man end up in a meat pie.

This is how the world spins,
Round and round

This is how some voices are drowned out by the bigger voices, because not everyone shares the same thought.

Not even when the smaller voice is desperately trying to speak the truth.

What is right and what is wrong?
Do people even care?

Why bother being outcasted by the majority by doing silly things like refusing a pipping hot delicious bowl of sharkfin soup?

Why bother when my act is being deemed as being silly for what can such an small and insignificant action do? It can't possibly save anything?

Why bother beautifying every shit with flowers and butterflies when they are being dumped mercilessly on me?

And why bother being 'nice' when people take it as an advantage and make a prey out of you?

I think i am just too stubborn to budge and that is too torturing for a aquarius like me so go ahead and make a grand feast out of me while i holds my ground

Rip out whatever that is still useful till there are nothing left anymore.

Lets hope there is still something that will make your stay even when i am just a pile of bones.

Had no idea what i am going on and on about anymore. Goodnight

D:.

Saturday, April 21, 2012 於12:17 PM

I realize i just deleted my whatsapp in incident.
See, even the aliens are helping me.

With the message history gone, lets see how fast will my lousy memory aid me in getting over this.
kekekekekekekekekeke

The hell happen to blogger?. had i travel to an unknown dimension? whatever, read on.

I think i gonna swallow back my words.
Should stop looking at the world and humans through a stained glass.

Actually i am contented with my life right now,
why harp on those whom are not meant to stay right?

meah meah de.

By the way i just ended my 6day work streak.
Seriously, my liver gonna burst from exhaustion.

But i loves working in a boutique.
Maybe i should try to open one... but business is complicated....i don't even know how algebra look like now and did i spell it correctly in the first place?.meah.

See first lorh
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh, i am in love.
With this Sen mitsuji male version of a nymph.

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*left my mouth hanging open like a idiot*

Please bitch,
its impossible to not to. hee

He is perfect!.

Been suffering and still trying to recover from a bad haircut thanks to a fucknut who doesn't even understand what a simple straight cut is. Screw him gr -_-.

I should have scream in the salon.

So currently, i sort of look like a extremely stupid woman cause my fringe is so figging short and.... -_-.
QI SHI WO LE, DIE YOU LOUSY BARBER DIE.

and ugh, let me think ..i forget what i wanted to type next.
erm.

OH, YES.
i wanted to complaint on how rude some human can get.

Seriously.

I am travelling to work on mrt in the morning and sitting down, suddenly this wild woman sat down next to me and suddenly she slapped my shoulder real hard, perharps its just a tap on shoulder to her but bitch please a tap on shoulder doesn't requires so much strength for god sake and she asked, "after dhoby ghaut is summerset not" in chinese.

Trying to be a good human being, i squinted at the board to check for her but due to my sleepyness and poor eyesight but that lousy piece of human being who is not fit to be a mammal in the first place totally go, " Eh you are from china issit?!".

And she said it loudly.

It took me only 0.1 second to turn around and go

well i sort of regret that i din't give this expression...
and i had no idea why i still went back to check and then answer her question.

and she just went off and alight after i tell her.

._.

Oh god, i must be too traumatize by this shit.
ITS SO RUDE. SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO RUDE. HOW CAN SOMEONE DO THIS. OH GOD WHY.

AND AFTER THAT I AM SO FIGGING MAD TILL I DASHED TOWARD MY SHOP AND STOMP AROUND WITH THE SHUTTER CLOSE SO NO ONE CAN SEE ME GOING BERSERK.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

TMD.

and from that day onwards i make a dang important decision in my life,
If i had kids in the future, screw ABC i gonna teach them manners first.

What the use of being educated when you behave like some cowdung. pfff

Alright i am hungry!.
BYEEEE.

Thursday, April 19, 2012 於12:00 PM

我想我的血，
确实是有丁点的冷

二十一天的缺席才可换得我的想念使我彷徨

开始有点难过了
即使我滴不下一滴泪

再过二十一天就会好了
我知道

那天，或许我会哭
让泪化成终点号码

结束这一切

风雨花

Friday, April 13, 2012 於8:04 AM

不畏风雨昂首怒放。

Life been gloomy ever since.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012 於2:06 PM

But at least my nails cheer me up~
I call them the happy happy nails.

heeheeheehee

The chershire themed~

& then this shade of pink!. wah i love it so much *beams*

Alright, its 5.13 in the morning and actually i do want to type a long and meaningful post to sum up my past failure of a date since its been 3 years ever since i offically..er..sort of really dated..

But i realize i can't write anything at all.

Plainly because i don't feel involved at all,

Honestly i had no idea if the person like me at all but i suppose not.

Despite all the assurance i got, i decided against it.

Cause your actions told me so.

As for being the not involved part..

Well, everything ended just because he is dating me in his mind.

He assumed I am needy, he isolated himself from me and the rest of the society just to think things out on his own and eventually he assume it would be better to leave.

Beginning, i am hesitant.

For i am afraid , afraid of being hurt.

But someone told me i should love without fear.

I tried and i almost did.

But for someone who can't even share his troubles and doubts with me.

I am never that needy girl in your head, i been waiting for weeks, for you to ask me and for me to prove you not.

When you came, you bring an pathetic end . The end.

I am so thankful that i din't.

and that batam night information has bring on a total dramatic trauma breakdown for me for almost half a week which is rather serious for i am a ridiculously cheerful person.

Well compare to being upset, i am fuming for honestly, a few dang weeks is nothing to me. seriously. -_- can i punch you for i am fuming up again at the thought of it. gr -_-.

and all that i am concern of is whether you do me or not.

Sorry its really embarrassing and pride murdering to type that word out so ya rofl.

Don't give me those proprieties shit and if its still a ya or uh.

You could still say hi after you rid yourself of those cursed whatever and when you gather enough courage to survive all of the below

HAHAHA

*smirks*

by the way since i am on the topic,

erhem. that someone, bow to me and apologize sincerely right now with peace offering and being kind like always, i will bury the hatchet.

else,

DIE.DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. GO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

给我死！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

oh god, i had the impulse to destroy and delete this post the minute i finish typing it ugh better turn off the com i am drunk today take it as i am drunk!!.

Friday, April 6, 2012 於9:29 AM

Yes,

I do know i am being unreasonable and demanding but there something i need to get or to be proven.

No matter what.

& regardless of all consequences

每次的与利用与背叛，

我永选择原谅。

“又不是说我才刚认识你。”

所以我依然选择友谊。

年复年的，我画的我写的

无疑问的，将信任寄托于你

我说，是不是这份信任来的易所以你不曾珍惜？

为你弃了多少付了多少

终究换不来你为我抛弃一切的一次

“我做的，到底是为了什么？。”

之后，我失去了理智。

与其承认自己是个笨蛋，

我宁可选择疯狂。

我依然信你，因我曾承诺过，因我懂你。

可你令我太失望了，

死王八。

Thursday, April 5, 2012 於1:25 AM

This time round,

I am utterly disappointed for i trusted you all along.

If you think i can bottle everything down and forgive like always.

Fuck you.

A quiet 21th.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012 於7:24 AM

(liting lah!, she took a whole human evolution worth of time to send me the photos LOL)

Honestly, i hated humans and being with a big group of unfamiliar faces is as bad as facing an crocodile.

Or hearing the apple crunch crunch sound :/.

Thus it only took me 0.001 second to say a n-o-NO when my dad asked if i wanted to host a party for my big day.

And till now i am still thinking of how to escape a wedding banquet without upsetting the elders.

(Hee i know i think too far ahead *coughs*).

Anyways, i can't remember much on what we did on the 29th of jan but i vividly remember how i am forced into watching Dance dance dragon that lame show by that three demons.

SHOULDN'T I GET TO CHOOSE SINCE ITS MY BIRTHDAY? :(.

tsk tsk,one of the bad point of being too close to human.

他们整天无视我!!

Anyways, photos.